October 04, 2010

Monday Morning

How many more Mondays like this? Alarm goes off in my head, I open my eyes, it's 7:30am and my schedule is unstructured and uncertain, kind of like me! It's crazy because I think back to when I had structure and order, and I remember during that time I had plenty of uncertainty too, because I felt like I was stuck in some kind of life template that didn't suit me.
It's easy for me to dwell on the fact that i miss California, my friends, my social life, palm trees, California, and California... : ) I have done plenty of dwelling and aching in that arena, while ignoring the pretty incredible things that I have experienced since I left. So I am taking Kate's direction and instead of dwelling and downing, I am going to be grateful and excited!
Things I am Grateful For Since I left California:
1. My family, as much as it sucks living with parents, I couldn't have asked for more love and support.
2. My first cd of songs I wrote myself, which was such a personal accomplishment!
3. Learning to be an ok guitar player in one year! No more Kulinski! : ) Good old Kulinski!
4. The night I hung out with Kate Voegele
5. Working with successful inspiring people who have "mastered" the music industry, and getting positive feedback from them
6. Being pushed to the darkest, most fearful corners in my mind - if I can face them I can overcome them!
7. Fuzzy - my orange little angel
8. Realizing how lucky I am that my best friends are my family, that I have them to cry and bitch to!
9. Chip
10. How much I am going to love going back to California - it will almost be as incredible as that January 15 at age 24.
11. This blog and Grawsky's morning inspiration
There is plenty more, I could go on and on....I never realized how many things I have to be thankful for!!
I will keep these things in my mind when I am auto-tuning to pain and suffering today...time to change the station! I think to a west coast one. ; )
What channel are you changing to? How long are you going to flip through the stations?
xoxoxoxoxo
Learning to be ME
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  1. KateOctober 4, 2010 at 6:06 PM

    I love it! I love your list of things to be grateful for...It's such a better way to view the day than the alternative - negative feelings!

    Can you believe I got a cold sore today!?!?! BUT feeling thankful I discovered the medicine that works quick! ;)

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  2. AlexOctober 11, 2010 at 7:24 PM

    allll the last few sentences :Seem like they could be great song!! Well done alllllll me likey !!!

    And I LOVE that you wrote that list! It's what you have to do sometimes to get through the low times that will lead to the highs (ha ha- high)

    xooxxooxox


    "I will keep these things in my mind
    when I am auto-tuning to pain and suffering today.
    Time to change the station!
    I think to a west coast one. ; )
    What channel are you changing to?
    How long are you going to flip through the stations?
    xoxoxoxoxo
    Learning to be ME

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